hey another weekend another saturday evening and I was looking forward to spent with that someone I so much like I even picked a nice cute dress and a mint color coat to wear this evening but looks like things ain't going the way i was anticipating...but me am not crying..angry maybe a lil bit disappointed..what the heck am still young..independent I still can have my pick...so i have my nails painted in a lovely red do my hair and am still wearing that cute dress and that oh so lovely mint color coat put my best foot forward and have fun tonite....

i got back from work
the house felt cold and errie
red bricks,wodden floor
all I hear is my footstep
which somehow comforts me
like music to the ears.

I need this quietness,this loneliness
I need solitude,peace,serenity
I need me to find me
I need to talk to myself

I found myself drifting back in time
I found the courage to open the doors
I closed firmly long time ago

I met my first love
love so pure and innocent
he was there with a smile and eyes filled with love
It gave me shivers and goosebumps
I felt joy deep inside me

I found myself back to the present again
my bed still left unmade dreaming
I went on doing my chores

I wondered where all that innocence has gone
why do I never feel the same again

I wish to be truly touched
I wished to be truly loved
I wished time would standstill

If not for anything
just to feel that joy so deep again!

i will turn 26 in abt 28days time 4 yrs down the line i will be 30 why can't i have my fucking own life...